He made me think!!!!

Well...what can I say, I was reading my friends blog the other day and he was expressing how unsettled he had become, and it got my thinking that I'm not alone. I've been a bit unsettled recently in so many ways, it's hard to explain, but I guess it's just that I'm feeling unsettled in who i'm becoming. I don't just want to be another 'Christian' who does nothing but really wants to. I want to be that Christian who actually wants more time in order to do the things that fill my heart. I guess we've all just got to keep looking up and striding out in faith.

It's been a while!!

well i have to admit it's been a while since i last blogged....no i didn't forget all about it, i've just been doing other things. Well since the last post i've changed jobs, i'm still working with computers but just now for another company. It's a local northern Irish firm and it a bit smaller than the previous company. As for the future..who knows what it has in store. I stil have a desire to do something different with my life. Rebecca and I spoke to our Minister and Elders before Christmas about going full time into Christian work, so we'll see.....
As for the next month, Rebecca's sis is getting married on 16th feb, so that'll be nice and then we're off to Chicago for a week to do some shopping. It's going to be cold, really cold, but we're both looking forward to it, a bit of a break will do us good!

The search begins for the right answer, i've been thinking about it for a year now. The question? What to do next? Give up full time employment and go into a ministry / missionary role? Really all the things that go through my head are money related, which is not a good thing. I've always thought I'd just work and earn the money to provide for my family, i guess the traditional view, but now Rebecca is earning twice what I am, so i guess my view is either now nonsense or I'm not looking in the right direction.What is the big fuss? Good question....I guess I don't want to be the same as everyone else in the world. We're all here for a reason, to serve God, but not many know it or accept it. I've been no different for years, but now I'm realising exactly what it all means. BUT... how do we go about serving HIM?

What to do?

I've been trying to decide over the past week what to do about my Rugby. Last season i started back playing with Cooke RFC, loved it, great bunch of guys, out of a squad of 25 there are about 16 Christians, but now i've got the option to move from Cooke ( who play Junior 1 ) to Banbridge RFC ( All Ireland League 3 ). What i'm trying to weigh up is, should i stay at Cooke and help the other christians to be motivated this season to doing something massive for God or do i move to a club where there a only 2 Christians and help them? I'm trying to figure out where God wants me to be. As much as i want to go to Banbridge for a higher level of Rugby, would I be going for the wrong reasons? Am I better staying at Cooke? I've never felt like this about a sports club before. Is God saying something to me by the offer of Banbridge? ie he wants me to go there? or is he testing me? It's all i think about, and I haven't come up with an answer yet......

Same stuff just a different day

Same stuff just a different day

So i haven't blogged in a week or so, and i've got to say that not much has changed in that time. I've been doing more thinking about life and just "stuff" in general. Many of my days have been the same, work, gym, rugby training, home etc... On friday night we sat down to relax and watched a DVD, 'The pirsuit of Happiness'. I found the film very good, but to be honest it made me think about things in my own life. The story basically is about a Father who wants what everyone else has. He does whatever he has to in order to provide for his Son, and his Son is his motivation. Even though the Father messes up a lot the Son still loves him, as long as they're together they're happy. The father is searching for a better life, and money and a better job.
It just made me think, we all run around thinking about getting bigger houses, New TV's new Cars, new phones, new this new that, bigger this bigger that..... when what we all should be doing is using what we've got for the greater good. It's funny, the number of Christians who get caught up in the world is huge. We all say we're different, we live different lives but underneath the surface we're all the same. We all want more and bigger things. I'm no different and i hate it. I'd like to be happy with all the things i've got, because i am actually happy, but they world makes you believe that you need more and more. Recently we've been thinking about using our house for others, we've talked about the idea of Fostering a child or baby, or letting people stay with us that are going through tough times. At the end of the day, we're in a very fortunate position, we have jobs, a home, 2 cars and each other. What i am wanting to challenge myself to do is, use all we have to make other people's lives happier. I know i babble on, but i don't want to be like all other people, i don't want to spend my life comparing my home, car, belongings, holidays etc to others.

Well today i'm feeling the pain. Was at Rugby training last night, and it's still mainly fitness, it's a killer. I've been hitting the gym every other day at lunch time, doing a pretty good work out, all to put on a bit of weight and more muscle. I'm not really wure if it's working, all i know is that i'm sore all over.
How good is it that it's the weekend? No more work for a day of two......... so happy!!!